This afternoon I am decorating the Christmas Tree and putting up a few more decorations, but it will again be a potted Norfolk Island Pine…I’ll be playing some favorite Christmas CDs while I do this to try and get myself into a better mood, and I’m sure I will succeed.
But it was a sad morning. I attended the funeral of a friend’s husband, a man who also died of Alzheimer’s. When Paul was ill, Suzanne was pastoral minister at our church and a kind and sustaining friend during the last two years of his life. So was our pastor, Father Steve, who officiated at the funeral mass this morning. He came and gave Paul the last rites more than once, and visited several times. But it brought back many memories of those days…..But in the spirit of not being sad because it is over, but happy because it happened, let me remember all the wonderful Christmases I have been able to experience. Paul loved Christmas so much and we went to great efforts to have a traditional Hungarian Christmas and I wonder if we did not enjoy it all as much as or more than our children!
On the other hand, I realize that for many people it is a tough time of year. Many people have suffered many sorts of losses, this year and throughout their lives. Many feel like outsiders looking in at what may seem more perfect than it actually is, and from which they feel excluded.
I am praying for all of them to find the blessing of Christmas, and am wondering what I can do to make that happen, more than I have…..Perhaps not in these next few days, but during the year to come.