Archive for November, 2015

Poem by Peg Runnels

Sometimes one reads a bit of a poem that seems to express so precisely what has been experienced that it begins a search to track down the entire poem. A few days ago a friend/distant cousin, new widow, posted a bit of a poem on Grief by Peg Runnels on Facebook and I found it all and am sharing it here:

I want my grief

to be brilliant, fast and gone.

Like Mozart. Or Stevie Ray.
Like fireworks. Boom! Flash!
Ooh, ahh. OK, done. Let’s go.

I want my grief to be brave.

Hurts more now, heals faster,
Grandma said, pouring salt
On a skinned knee.

I want to stand up to grief,
Stand it down, like the
Tiny man, big tank
In Tiananmen Square.

Because. Because if I am brave,
Bold, salty, open enough
The tank, the bleeding, the tears
Will stop sooner. I tell myself.

But grief laughs. Humbles me.
I lose keys, break cups, get lost.
Asked at CarMax Why are you
Selling this car?
I burst

Into an embarrassment of tears.
A friend says, One doesn’t have grief,
Grief has you.

We wrestle, to the mat. I’m pinned.

But sometimes I break free.
Break patterns instead of dishes.
Start to write myself a new story,
To fling myself toward yes,

Begin to say, Oh. Now this. . . . Observe
What life brings. Reframe. Say,
I’m not wrestling grief,
We’re dancing.

So, I put my right foot in . . .
And turn myself about.


Hokey Pokey

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Holidays on the Way


This is the week of Thanksgiving.

I have a lot for which to be thankful but am NOT that thankful for the new WordPress set up.  Still problems. OTH, it is true that I’ve been using them for years and for free and that is something for which I am grateful…..Sigh.

This is Alice’s  window box at the entrance to her home. She always makes it beautiful! I am trying to make my own home a bit more beautiful, even though Thanksgiving will not be held here. My grandmother’s turkey plates are on the hutch cupboard until it is time to change to the Christmas plates….So are my small collection of squirrels and acorns….One squirrel came from the shelf of the clock on the desk of my Dad’s dentist office…..Family will be over and I want them to enjoy the ambiance!

My oldest grandson Nathan told his mother that he liked coming to my house best because it was the coziest of the three where we celebrate Thanksgiving. I’m not sure this was deserved, but I am grateful for this too. My grandchildren are the ones who most of all keep a song in my heart….(But my children are too, and their spouses. I am blessed. And grateful.)Alice nov 2015 window box thanksgiving

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Trying Again…….

Art Woman Lying on a Bench, 1913.jpg carl larsson

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The Beauty of the World

I am very frustrated because WordPress has made changes I cannot work with or figure out….Maybe later.


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November Inside and Out

November is certainly making itself felt these days!
Yesterday was so windy that many people lost power around here, and by here I mean maybe 40 miles in every direction….Perhaps more.

And it has been rather gloomy. But as some people have pointed out it is a good time to enjoy things indoors.

My daughter Alice and her husband and sil Ingmar were given floor side tickets to a Cleveland Cavaliers game recently. “We” won!Several friends spotted them on TV and called to make sure their eyes were not playing tricks on them.

Alice nov 2015 at the cavs game court side seats how great is this!

But not everything was happening indoors. Nathan and his class had a wonderful three day field trip in the environmental education station in the National Park. They camped overnight for two nights and did all manner of experiments, especially with the Cuyahoga river water during the day. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YYaEev4OFc

Nathan Nov 2015 3 day field trip testing water

Nathan nov 2015 3 day trip with class CVNP

Nathan nov 2015 3 day trip testing with clasmates

And Sofia and Clara enjoyed family hikes in some of our wonderful nearby parks. We live in a beautiful area, though I think most places are beautiful if one looks carefully.

Sofia nov 2015 on a tree in the wood with Clara


And moving inside again, here is a moment of Stephen and his cousins having a theater performance about a week ago. (I love the expression on Clara’s face!)

Stephen nov 2015 with clara theater at the rauscherts

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No sun – no moon!
No morn – no noon –
No dawn – no dusk – no proper time of day.
No warmth, no cheerfulness, no healthful ease,
No comfortable feel in any member –
No shade, no shine, no butterflies, no bees,
No fruits, no flowers, no leaves, no birds! –

-Thomas Hood

However, the sun is shining today and there are still a few beautiful leaves on trees. Not nearly as many as before we had the little visit from the far reaches of Hurricane Patricia, however.

We did get that extra hour to sleep in this morning though it will be paid for by earlier darkness. At what we are now calling six o’clock in the evening it will be as dark as yesterday at seven.

But there have been wonderful moments with grandchildren to brighten the end of October.

Sofia oct 2015 climbing trees

Sofia and Clara did some tree climbing in the glorious days of fall color.

Nathan oct 25 2015 carving pumpkins

Nathan, Stephen and Alice and Mike had some fun carving pumpkins….The new plastic knives for this make it much safer for children.

Nathan oct 25 2015 pumpkins stevies is the one with square eyes

And the result!

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